still at the office | hollywilde's Blog

So here I am long past the time when the kids have gone to bed, and I'm still here at the office. Not working - despite the piles of files on my desk - but not going home either.  Just trolling around EP and seeing what is new.  And avoiding - work, home, reality. 

Now that the election is over, my number one hobby (political blogs and newsites) is somewhat empty.  Quite enjoyed the results (my guy won!) and the resulting what the f"" just happened navel gazing by the GOP, but the General's affair just isn't enough to fill the procrastination void.

I am the well spouse in my marriage to a disabled husband, and I am the sole income earner.  My husband has help at home so I haven't left him stranded.  He is well taken care of, as are the kids.  I've always worked long hours, but I guess I stay at work later than I should because part of me doesn't want to go home.  Sometimes it is because I upset the routine but other times I admit I just would prefer to be alone.   I don't mind being alone - never have.  A good book, smooth jazz and a large glass of something white or red, and I'm in my element.  But even so, it's lonely here and I know I'll be lonely even more when I go home.